Religion And Spirituality Open Question Spiritual Awakening Bringing Peace And Causing Numbness

For once in like 5 years i feel some sort of peace in my life. i always used to feel like ecstatic or excited but never really happy. I think most of my life I've just been on edge all the time. Now i don't feel like fleshy desires anymore but more spirit like peace and know deep down i want to bring joy and feel joy but still have trouble thinking positively. I have been praying a lot and i think its helping me though. Could just be delivered from my fleshy desires? I feel less tolerant to pain and really just feel deeply at peace. Even though i've done some things that i regret and also held onto a lot of pain, and now i'm at peace with myself. I feel like i have repented and still praying to be led to repentance. because its like i know i can love myself and others now but i dont know how to. I've always been quiet and not talked a lot. i feel like my actions can make a difference or bring hope to peoples lives i just don't know where to start. Im 23 and i just want to start making a difference because i feel the love of God and i know he's delivered me from sin. Do these feelings last or are they temproray?

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